live fully, die suddenly

I did a Laughter Yoga presentation today for 150 seniors at the Senior Resource Day sponsored by the Arapahoe County Council on Aging. The event was free and open to the public. People were sitting in rows and I was nervous about how to do laughter yoga when the participants didn't have room to move around. I have done laughter yoga with seniors many times with people in independant living and assisted living and found them to be very receptive. These seniors were active people living on their own. Younger people were sprinkled throughout the audience, too. It was a hoot.
At the beginning when I looked out at the sea of faces, I had to remind myself to breathe because I was so scared. As I relaxed and got into the presentation I entered the flow where I'm not self-conscious anymore. I'm no longer thinking about what they might be thinking of me. My focus is on creating the opportunity for adults to laugh about nothing, let go of their tension and seriousness and relax and enjoy themselves by being silly and playful. It feels natural, meaningful and satisfying to be leading Laughter Yoga. Talking in front of groups has always been terrifying for me.
This fear is healing each time I present. I am grateful. I feel blessed to have three forms of work that balance each other so well: counseling and mentoring, hatha yoga and laughter yoga.
The man who presented after me talked about exercise and aging and was humorous and informative. He presented an idea that really resonated with me. It was to live life fully and die suddenly. I would love to continue living my life fully and to keep growing and changing as I age. I would love to grow in acceptance of myself and others and keep opening to ways to make a difference in the world. I would like to live for a long time.Then I would like to die suddenly and peacefully without a prolonged disease process. I wonder how much any of us has to say about how we die? I certainly don't know.We definitely have a lot to say about how we live. How are you living? Would you be willing to acknowledge some of the ways you are living more fully than you did before, however small or large they may be?